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True. My mother did her best work under the nose of the Empire.

[He smiles a bit, hoping the reminder might make her smile too. If she wanted to have faith in Thranduil or in the other rifters, he would try to as well.

His smile slips again when he feels her on the edges of panic. He takes her hand in both of his, coaxing her to come into his arms.]

Come here.

[He can't imagine he helped, losing his temper so publicly. He had calmed down now, for the most part, but seeing Rey worry made him worry. He wanted to help her.]

[ His reminder of what Leia accomplished doesn't entirely help. She's not sure anyone could do what the General did, short of the woman herself. Rey wishes she was here, now.

It doesn't take much prompting to get her to stand, turning to step around her chair and lean against him, wrapping her arms around his waist as she presses her face into his chest. ]

I'm not going to let them do this to us. We've been here for years, you would think we'd proven ourselves to be trustworthy, by now.

Edited 2018-05-07 19:28 (UTC)

[His arms move firmly around her waist once Rey presses against him, his chin raised slightly to the top of her head. He doesn't know what to do, how they could even stop this if it came to fruition. Years of service didn't seem to matter.]

They're afraid of us. We can't stop them from being afraid of us. Fear isn't exactly an emotion based in rationality.

[More importantly, they seemed willing to change terms of their coexistence based on those fears. It made them dangerous. What if they started trying to round them up one by one and kill them? The thought that someone would try to kill Rey, or anyone she cared for, made his stomach knot. There were people like Chloe who couldn't even defend themselves in the face of something like that.]

They've put rifters in positions of power, made it seem like they trust us and care about what happens to us.

[ Her hands are balled into fists at Ben's back. She's angry about this. The advisors at Skyhold were people she knew, Cullen she had talked to several times and had thought she liked him. She doubts Leliana would have agreed with this, either. So this was likely coming more from religious leaders than Skyhold. Exhaling she tightens her arms, trying to be calm. ]

They don't even know if this will work. If no one agrees to be a test subject, they won't get far with their research.

Being in a position of power doesn't always mean trust is completely there. Sometimes it's about who can promote the message they want to send the best. Sometimes it's about who is easily manipulated.

[He doesn't mean to spout First Order rhetoric but it had merit. That was how Hux had risen to power as a General. He had been feared by some and by others considered ambitious and bendable to their own ambitions. Snoke in particular had seen that unpredictability in both him and Hux and had manipulated it.]

Unless they make us do this, we can still fight it, as you said. If no one agrees they'd have no basis for the change unless it's done by a show of force. We have to be careful. They may not react to a rebellion from us the way they did the mages.

[He sighs, dipping his head to brush his lips to her cheek and staying there for the closeness. He could feel the tension rolling off of her and it was disconcerting to him when he was so used to her being a calming force for him. He was normally the angry one and he was trying not to be for her sake.]

Edited 2018-05-07 20:12 (UTC)

[ She doesn't say anything for a long moment, her forehead pressed against his collarbone, not moving aside from blinking her eyes as he brushes his lips against her cheek. She's fought for a rebellion before. There had been less of them in the end than there were rifters. ]

They need us. There are natives who have anchor shards, but not enough. We'll just have to make them see that what they're asking for is unreasonable.

[He wants to ask how she plans to make them see, when he's already decided that they'll do whatever they want with them, but instead he just focuses on her and rubs circles into her back with his fingertips. He had only been here at most two months and already the Inquisition and the natives had solidified his inability to trust them. Even if they did listen there was a chance they could change their minds.]

We'll figure something out together.

[The question was 'What?']

[ It's strange how being in his presence relaxes her, keeps her from spiraling into the panic she felt herself teetering on the edge of before. Her hands loosen from the clenched fists, pressing flat against his back instead and she turns her head, pressing her face close to his. Not kissing him, just taking comfort in his closeness. ]

Thank you for not storming into Thranduil's office.

I thought about it, but you stopped me.

[He presses his lips together, feeling nervous for actually admitting she had changed his mind about something.]

I didn't want my actions to reflect back onto you. You've worked hard here, earned a place. I don't want to be the one to sabotage that.

[He bows his head properly, lifting her chin beneath his fingers and resting his forehead to hers, relishing in the closeness.]

Edited (fuck you adam driver for being so tall and making me have to think about where body parts fit) 2018-05-07 23:39 (UTC)

[ Rey smiles slightly at that, just the corners of her lips turning upwards nothing more. His thinking of her before just acting is something she wouldn't have expected of him. It lifts her mood a little, that even though they are being treated unfairly in this moment, he is getting better living in this place. ]

With some luck maybe we can get ourselves out of this without anything drastic happening. But I'm ready to fight this if I have to.

[Her smile makes his stomach do flip flops and he is immediately glad for the choice he made. Her approval meant something to him. He might not always want to do the 'right' thing, but he did what was right for him. She was a part of that.]

Maybe. Thranduil and Obi-Wan seemed willing to try and feel this out more. We may not need a fight if we go about this right.

[But he wasn't afraid of it coming to that. His trust in the Inquisition was now broken, knowing that they would try to do all of this despite the fact that so many of them were trying their best to make homes for themselves and were cooperating with the rules already in place.

He had every intention of fighting for her to keep the home she had built for herself. His thumb traces the upturned corner of her lips where her smile showed itself. He wouldn't watch them take this smile or her home from her.]

[ She smiles a little more at his touch on the corner of her mouth, her eyes warm on his. ]

Nothing is decided yet. The mages were able to get them to agree to destroy some of their phylacteries, we just need to convince them that we deserve to be treated with the same respect.

Everyone keeps saying we need to convince them but how?

[He frowns a bit. Sorry he's such a pessimist, Rey.]

They seem pretty well decided on what they're doing if they're going to put notices out about it.

They put out notices all the time. If there's one thing this Inquisition loves, it's notices.

[ Rey rolls her eyes. She doesn't always think the notices are necessary. In this case, they maybe should have thought through what they were posting a little better first. ]

It said they're looking into the possibility of phylacteries to track us. We don't even know if they'd work for a Rifter. Once they figure out if they work, then they'll be deciding if they're needed.

[ The look on her face is one of grim determination, now. ]

We'll convince them that they can't treat us like we're dangerous creatures they need to keep locked up. Leave, if we absolutely have to.

Why am I not surprised?

[He rolls his eyes along with her. He imagines the last thing the Inquisition leaders wanted was to incite unrest among their ranks, but they were doing a poor job of showing it. Now they had what probably amounted to dozens of Rifters secretly making plans.]

What I want to know is - how is a vial of blood supposed to track a person?

[He scrunches his nose a bit while trying to process how that would even work. He knows nothing of Thedas' technology. Their lack of any sensible technology was still annoying to him. This magic business only made it worse.]

Leave? You'd want to leave all of this?

[His surprise is fairly evident and then the image enters his mind: the two of them, living in some secluded hut, surrounded by woods and grass, living together completely alone. No, a hut in the middle of nowhere wouldn't do. If he could go back - he wanted to show her Chandrila someday. The bustling streets of Hanna City, friendly passerby on every corner - she deserved to be surrounded by people, surrounded by a bustling city and grass and lakes on the outskirts that lead to mountains further out from that.

Chandrila was a beautiful planet and he wanted her to see it, even if he didn't see himself ever going back there. He could see it in his mind, a quaint little apartment like his parents had when he was young. He wasn't sure how he felt about having a family himself - it was way, way, too early for that sort of thing. Being with her was enough.]

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I don't want to, but I will if it means not being treated like I'm not a person like anyone else.

[ She knows very little about how the phylacteries work, and would have said as much if his little fantasy hadn't passed between them. She stills, his thought of a beautiful city like one she's never seen and that briefest ghost of a family. Were she any other woman she would probably be terrified of that thought as it passes through his mind. But Rey doesn't remember what it's like to have a family. She wants that, someday.

Letting out a quiet laugh she slides one hand around his chest to touch his face gently, leaning her forehead a little more into his. ]

Of course I might run away with you even if this works out in our favor.

Is that so?

[His stomach was doing a steady barrage of flip flopping at the mention of running away together. Even if they stayed here forever, he wouldn't mind. It was a nice vacation from their lives back home. He knows that his choice to become Supreme Leader had been a hasty one, but he'd wanted the power to stabilize the galaxy. He hadn't expected to be doing it alone.]

You know, I'm not exactly a nice man to be running away with.

[He smiles a bit, feeling exhilarated by the direction their conversation was taking. Where this boldness came from, he didn't know, but he was running with it. They might not get very far until their shards caused them pain, as Iorveth had told him, but the idea of being far away from all of this with just her was a nice one.]

I just might keep you all to myself.

[ She knows rationally that they wouldn't be able to disappear long term. The rifters were all connected, in a sense. But the thought of running away with him and starting anew... It's one she's harbored many times. Wrinkling her nose she tilts get head to the side, just slightly. ]

I don't need a nice man.

[ She murmurs before lifting her chin enough to press her lips to his. ]

Edited 2018-05-08 17:10 (UTC)

[He grabs the back of her shirt, wrinkling the fabric in his hold as he does, and kisses her back with barely contained intensity. His gravity centered onto her, as if the universe held only one star or planet in the entire galaxy and he was fortunate enough to just be caught in her orbit.

He was lucky. She could have killed him - several times, in fact - or left him to freeze to death in that cave in the Sunless Lands. She could have kept their bond locked up tight and pretended he didn't exist. Instead, she was here and they were relying on each other.

His touch moves greedily up her spine, messing up and smoothing her shirt out again as he goes. His thoughts latch onto, for what must be the hundredth time since they started whatever this was between them, how much he wanted her. They were about as subtle as a house on fire and the way he pressed her against him and opened their mouths to deepen their kiss was just as unsubtle.]

[ She sighs into his mouth, the tension of a few moments ago starting to bleed out of her in response to his touch. Her body arches into his and her hand on his face slides back to his hair, tangling in it and holding him close. At least this is something she can be sure of. Regardless of what's going on in the Gallows, she has Ben and his feelings for her are plain. ]

[His hand tangles in her hair in response, tugging lightly wile his mouth slanted against hers; his lips, teeth and tongue saying what words failed to evoke. His eyes fell shut against the overflow of sensations and all seemed to still and feel right between them.

He could tune out all the rest: the uncertainty of their place in Thedas; the worries that the Inquisition, or the Chantry, or whoever, only planned to keep them all here; whether he would even have this when and if they went back. Let all of Thedas fight themselves for all he cared.

His hands drop to her waist before he wraps his arms around her, dragging her upwards against him while he reached out for somewhere - her desk seemed to work well enough. The objects laid on it seemed to jump away from the surface of it when he brought her closer to set her down again. He leaned in, bracing himself with a hand laid on either side of her.]

[ They've gotten pretty good at this, from the first unsure kiss to now. Rey knows exactly how to move her lips against his, how to avoid leaning too far into it and hitting his teeth with hers. She's able to lose herself in the moment, drowning herself in the sensation of his body pressed to hers, her senses filled with him.

She does let out a small gasp as he pulls her upwards, her legs going around his waist to steady herself. Then her rear meets desk and she pulls away from him enough to look around her to make sure that nothing important will get disrupted only to see he's already knocked everything on the floor. Letting out a quiet laugh she shakes her head. ]

What if I'd been working on something important, here?

[ She hums as she leans back into him again, her hands smoothing up his arms and over his shoulders. ]

Ah. Well, it was in the way.

[Which is to say he will help her fix it if something broke, but that could wait. Her laughter was like music to his ears and he never got tired of hearing it. His mouth drops to hers again, comfortable with the familiarity they've both found, while his hands get comfortable on her outer thighs.]

I'll put everything back after.

Don't worry about it. It was just junk.

[ Her hands trail up to his neck, then face, the smile not leaving her lips even as his mouth covers hers. She let her legs relax, hanging to either side of his hips rather than wrapped around them. ]

[ Poe needed a question answered and he didn't think the crystal would be appropriate for it. He was a more in person kind of guy to begin with. By the way of how this one thing sounds, it seemed important. He didn't think about privacy in the moment of when he got to Rey's door. He enters first with a quick knock of a warning. ]

Hey, I was wonder-- [ His sentence is cut short be surprise. Poe takes a moment to really look at what was going on. First she was with someone. He didn't think she would be. That was his first mistake and second mistake wasn't waiting for the "come in". He doesn't stare long as he immediately covers his eyes with his hand while keeping his mouth free. ]

Uh, [ He's stumbling with the words while his brain comes back. She was with Kylo Ren and that was a lot to take in a well. ] I can come back later. [ Poe knows he's currently in the wrong too. It's probably not his first time walking in on two people. He slowly backs towards the door while keeping his hand over his eyes to give them privacy. Another confused thing to think about in regards to Rey being with Kylo Ren. ]

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