[He feels himself stiffen when she asserts how much love his family has for him. He knew his mother still loved him, had felt it when he'd nearly blown her ship out of space, but that didn't erase all the years he'd felt completely alone. Nor did knowing they loved him erase what Luke had done to him.]

A mistake makes it sound like he tripped and his lightsaber ignited inches from my face.

[He takes a breath, not meaning to sound angry with her.]

He might have come to feel remorse after the fact but it doesn't change what happened and knowing he felt bad about it doesn't change anything either.

[If anything, the one person who had been relatively blameless in all this had been his mostly absent father.]